Thursday, March 12, 2009

children


every child is born
with a need for wonder;
he wants to turn his eyes
on something he can admire,
to be led to a mountaintop
where he can
contemplate
the splendid view,
the changing light,
the snow,
the reflections on ice,

and the soaring eagle,
majestically protecting its young,
as human parents ought to do, too.

but instead,
the landscpe that stretches out
before many children,

all the way to the horizon,
is often nothing

but an open-air rubbish dump,
where automobile carcasses,

broken chairs and plastic bags
litter the ground:

a single expanse

of desolation and disorder.

even stuck in such a situation,

a child can manage
to find something to admire-

a marble, perhaps-

and for a fraction of a second,
the world contains no more shadows
and shines in his hands!!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

said it...mean it


yeah...right!!
i wanna love you tonight!
yeah...right!!
i wanna hold you tight!
yeah...right!!
you know it, baby, don't you?!
am i right?
all i, now, want is you!!

say it now...
say those words again.
say it now...
call my name again.
say it now...
you know what i wanna hear.
say it...please!
say that even you want me near...

i like it...
i like when you hold me...
i like it...
i like when you touch me.
i like it...
i like when every moment seems new!
i like it...
rather i love it when you smile when i say
"I Love You"!!

Friday, February 27, 2009

m0mmA....


i know i'm bad, momma
but i'll try to be good
there are lots of things in store
and i shall do them, i would!
but the way you
turn your face
hiding your hurt,
i do feel the disgrace.
Momma, please,
please don't give up on me.
one day i would shine.
and make you proud of me.

i know, when you held me
for the first time,
you must have woven
some dreams, sublime.
but when i break away,
when i kill your Gospels,
when i don't listen
i see the anger you don't dispel.
Momma, please,
please scoff at me
slap me, make me cry,
don't let your anger be.

the day i confronted
your eyes went sad.
your stare still questions me
it was the limit you'd had
your taunts aren't enough
i have deterred
when you still laugh with me,
your tolerance i revere!
Momma, please,
please keep talking to me
don't go silent like you did
it killed the heck outta me.

Momma, hold me,
cradle me again.
teach me life's rules
i have begun to love the pain.
Momma, your baby needs you.
everyone leaves my hand.
if i lie in your lap and just cry
would u not ask anything and understand?
i know you will
as you have always understood
Momma, stay like the moonlight,
in these dark, dense woods.

I LOVE U, MOMMA!!
because you're so selfless
you give me the space
you embrace when i'm helpless.
i'd always stand-by you
because you hang-on
you lend careful ears to me
even when my cacophony is on!

I LOVE YOU, MOMMA...
and i love when you dislike me being forlorn....

Monday, February 23, 2009

Dreamzzzz.....


we shouldn't have kissed
i knew it'd be the last we'll have
u shouldn't have reciprocated
i know all what i cannot have...
reading b/w the lines, i knew
i was never the prime
did i demand anything?
then how did we become ashes and wine?
sometimes the questions should just be
ur not here to provide the answers
images suffocate my resolve
the past is now a sketchy picture
lier? ditch? or cheat?
what name have u given to me?
i know nothing would matter
shall i just let it be?
its hard now, 'coz i dream of u...
every waking moment!
i dream of u...
when my sleep offends.
i dream of u...
and i know i'd never repent...
i dream of u...
these dreams wouldn't end!!

i'm so frail for u
that i can't even cry
one day i thought i'd ask u,
"don't let me go even if i'd say goodbye"
oh! but here, its u on the move!
and i don't even have the courage
to stop u from going
i don't even know if this is disgrace!
things are ending soon
and i'd turn to be empty for sure!!
'coz the only resonance i had
is in my life no more!!
crawling back to where i was
the way is such a long road
i'm slowly losing my immune
and soon i'd run outta all i'd stored!!
i can't even see properly
i'm lost and forgotten to be deft
there would be nothing now
oh, wait, there's something left...
dreams of u...
can i keep them please!?!
i wanna dream of u
and let them be my disease.
in those dreams of u
u won't let me be down on knees
and when i'd dream of u,
i'd dream of us and won't let it cease!!

Just a Friend....


i knew u care
when i'd slit my wrist
and U went
through a nightmare!!

i knew i am important
when u sit by me
bring me smiles
rebuke me for being despondent!

i know i am a despot
for u, over ur heart
'coz every time i ask u anything,
u do it with a nod!!

i know u love me
when yesterday in the rains
u looked at me, and in an instance
u said, "set ur tears free"

u know u have a halo
'round ur head
so glowing that it brings
a sudden spring to my fallow!!

y do u do this?
y am i entitled to so much?
whenever i'm in dungeons,
how do u manage to bring bliss?

i feel its an unfair deal
u'll deny that, even that i know.
but i fell u really
lug me, with a great ordeal!!

sorry 'coz i hurt u
even now i am, i know
y u're so kind?
y don't u exclaim, "Phew"!!

singing songs for me
could've helped way back
but when u still do it,
u really sound funny!!

and. yess, how could i
forget ur famous gesture
when i thrust my poems in ur hands
and u keep rolling ur eyes!!

ur stupid, a dumb buff!
but i like u this way
when u're out to straighten things
and mess up all the stuff!!!

ok..ok.. too much has been said
but dare u comment
or ask me anything
i'm sure gonna leave u dead!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

ultimate scamper


y do i love u?
i don't know!
i love u...
that's all i know!!

funny, its becoming...
do i have any love left in me?

i have given u my all
n u've chosen to be free...

left behind in this dark,
i can see more clearly

i am bleeding

the wounds have bore deeply

this time i thought, oh y?,
ur goina stay!
abandoned, when u were,
my last gleaming ray
beautiful ur sacrifices!
and now, here, what's my fault?

for no reason u called me fake!

is it over? i'm still on a hault!!
do i need my time?
or have i already decided?

u said u loved me too
was it so frail to have subsided?
nothing's appealing to me now

everything hurts coz its all fine
inside there's such a turmoil
the reasons, the lines... undefined!
what have u done?
i wont ask y?
ur reasons r urs only
but u didn't even say "Goodbye"!!

everything has reached limits

i've jumped off the las precipice!
the only love of my life
has become my extreme vice!!

would i have to scamper
and collect my pieces again?

shattered worse than a mirror
i can't even feel the pain...
no tears came this time
the loss is far too great

teach me a last lesson, plzz...
teach me how to hate!!
what did i do wrong?
even the question isn't strong
but i'm not questioning u...
i've been thinking loud for so long...

u must b right...
i can't even take a stand

it has been quite a blow

i'm unable to understand...
left my hand,

yes u can very well go

even if i beg, u won't stop

and someday, even i might forgo!!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Strangers.....


they are holding hands and walking...
but their hands... are they even holding??
her fingers are slipping out of his grip
he's carelessly walking, did he even grip?
they both are looking the opposite directions
wandering uselessly without corrections.
"do u wanna talk?" she asks, not looking at him
he just looks at her, turns his face again, "hmm..."
"what do u think we r doing?" he asks...
she gives a thought, "playing a game of masks".
"are u wearing one right now?"
"no, i've managed to take it off somehow"
he again looks at her, she's gazing distant
"ur beautiful", that was the impulse of the instance.
she stops, tears fill her eyes, she doesn't know why?
"i'm tired, my love, y don't we give ourselves a try?"
now he grips her slipping fingers and holds her hand
in their eyes, they could see a terrifying quicksand.
"i want u", his voice was almost a whisper
"then i'll fight for both of us"...though she couldn't decipher.
they sat by the river, just gazing into the waters...
she leaned on his shoulder, now they won't falter...
distant somewhere the birds chirped goodbyes to the setting sun...
after the turbulence, those two strangers were, at last, one!!