People play Games...Love isn't one

if I knew it would end like this,
I'd have never talked to you.
I'd never give you hope.
never let myself surrender to you.
or was it even true?
I was just so used to being with you!
I didn't know I could manage on my own.
Or... can I?

my eyes are open,
but the pain is near.
in my broken heart,
I do not know if it was you
who broke my heart
or did I break yours?
it all ended so sadly.
with hatred, with betrayal.
its easier when there's a reason
why people break up.
but there is not.
the blame is whose?

and you have to blame
someone for your miserable mind.
love left behind my shattered heart.
alone to survive in this cold world
alone to believe I could love again.
that I would feel joy.

but...Love doesn't hurt people,
or make them feel sad,
or trick them.
People hurt people.
with intention or with accident.
but everyone is the master of their own life,
if they dare.
if they don't, they keep blaming love for their hurt...
Like people have done for ages...
Like I'd been doing till now!!

not yet the long sleep

glittering dark,
dancing before my eyes...
closed everything I see,
shadowed!
in roaring silence I hear...
falling of a feather,
soundless...
a hush!!
my lover's touch..
bitter, life's bile.
sweet, love's taste.
shadows of tomorrow
darken the path of yesterday.
what was,
will never be what is.
Stands before my eyes, open...
MY LIFE...