HOW LONG SINCE.....???

how long has it been

since i talked to a friend

and told them my heart's hidden secrets!?!

how long since i prayed, since i stayed...

on my knees, till light shone through!?!

how long has it been

since my mind felt at ease??

how long since my heart knew no burden?

can you call me your friend?

how long has it been since anybody knew

that i care for them??

how long has it been

since i knelt by my bed

and prayed to Lord, up above in heaven?

how long since i knew that He'll care for me

and would keep me the long night through!?!

how long has it been

since i woke with the dawn

and felt that this day is worth living?

can you call me your friend??

how long has it been since you knew

that i care for you!?!

ANGEL OF DISGRACE

i wish my eyes were shut

then i'd have no fears

go through life

with no hate or tears

or if i was numb

i'd feel no pain

never drowning in shadows

or soaking in shame...

maybe an angel

feeling good so much

then i wouldn't be scared

of love's sweet touch...

kissing me softly

with one deep breath

sweeping me into

eternity, with rest

i wish i wasn't

always so alone

everybody's something--

i just wanna go home!!

nobody to talk to

they're all cloned and fake

and then, there's me-

easy to hate!!

they think i stand on a pedestal

perfect picture in a frame

there's more to it..

underneath the mask, there's shame..

horrible things

said and done

but nobody would listen,

to them, its fun!!

i hold onto my anger

locked in a box

chains all around it

attached are locks!!

i wish there was a key

to let it all out

but instead it builds up..

exploding, without a doubt

sometimes i wanna scream

so long that life escapes

then i'd shut my eyes

i'd be the angel of disgrace!!

(dis is d closet truth abt me)