....RUNAWAY....

why this dillemma over crossed memories again? why am i feeling the pangs of pain? this ain't a rhyme, yet it comes out this way... of deciet, of loneliness, and how can i get away!?!


i don't know, my mind doesn't speak anymore. alone, away from all, bruised till my core... no friend to speak to, no one to care... i left them all back for sometime, until i come out clear...



but i miss him so much with every blink... and i miss my friends... i'm on the brink_ to cut loose and fly away into the unknown_ into the birds and the flowers and never be hurt by the stones...



i feel like an escapist!! and hell, i'm even boasting this fact... but suddenly my hopelessness seems like my destiny's pact...

i've left back the people who said that they needed me... i didn't bring with myself those people i needed to be.... i don't know why, just why did i tread alone in these murky pasts... maybe to revitalise myself and leave behind some gore masks....



i'm not liking here in Almora...even in the hills, the cold wind and this weather that i would have loved otherwise.... i'm not liking myself to be far away from each and every of my friend, away from him.... but i guess i gotta do that if i again wanna give you all my real feelings....

i guess i need my time.... and i hope i'll get it....
Love you,
and miss you all...

take care!!

...this one here is to my own reflection in the mirror...this is "MY GIFT" to myself...

i quickly tire

of hearing you scream

as i glare at you

my eyes beam!!

soon you do not know

but will be dead

and will regret

every word you said...

as i stab you,

the knife i twist

you will feel the death,

you have long missed!!

deep down you know

that you deserved it

and i am the one

who had reserved it...

this gift i give you

hand you with pleasure

and this memory

i will forever treasure!!!