CROSSROADS
there she is crying
as i get closer,
i realise that its me
as i look before her feet
i realise that the pieces of my life are on the floor
just scattered!!
i don't know what to do!?!
do i pick up the pieces..
or comfort her??
but the presence is here...
his face is so very haunting!!
now i'm alone
she's gone
my life, all its memories
are scattered to the wind
the darkness is closing all around me
i don't know which way to go!?!
I'm LOST!!!
all i can do is cry with fear
i can't fight him anymore
i truly am weakened by his presence
the pain is so real
all these open wounds
are slowly killing me
are these childish fears!?!
or is he really here??
my heart is pounding
coz i realise i'm a part of him
i close my eyes begging him to go
the touch of him is gone
but not what he left behind...
i can't fight these pains anymore
coz i'm still weak
look at what he's done to me...
look at what he's left behind...
a broken, impure child
but i guess coz time can't erase,
i have no choice
but go down the road
like i've been doing all alone...
i've been telling myself
that he's gone
but he's like a shadow
here with me for always...
you've made me what i am today
all these wounds i cannot hide
i just cannot try and hide them anymore
they are just too many
the numbness of my ragged soul
hurts me so deep....
but i can't let his presence take over me
yet its hard to be strong
i'm still too weak for him!!
here i am at a Crossroad...
which road would lead to my happiness
and save me befor i'm undone!?!?
i can't live this lie anymore
i just want him to leave me alone
i have to heal
i can't turn back now
but do i go left
or shall i go right??
i don't know
i'm blinded by my pain
i'm truly stuck at this crossroad....
all alone.....
(...and now it feels so damn good to let go of this all...!!)
