FACES

THERE'S A FACE IN THE DARK

a face is there in my spark

a face is in my destiny

a face behind the real me

a face pushing the bad

a face mocking on me when i'm sad

a face making evil in my head

a face knocking me dead!!!

THERE'S A FACE IN THE NIGHT....

a face filled with chills and fright

a face which makes me crave

a face which reflects my grave

a face which makes me a paranoid

a face without which i'm devoid

a face which lures the hell

a face which alters every gospel!!!

THERE'S A FACE IN THE LIGHT....

a face which simmers within right

a face i name as conscious of mine

a face breathing in my dead shrine

a face which counters my Satan

a face which perfumes my rotten

a face which says, "I'm alive"

a face which balms my cuts from knives!!!

but i just HATE IT,

i never wanna see it again....

coz i identify myself with faces

which give me EVIL & PAIN

haha!!!

THEIR PAIN....

i can only imagine
what its like to sacrifice
how it feels to do without
what it takes to pay the price
to offer all i have
unto others with a need
i can only imagine....
for myself,
i live in greed!!!

i can only imagine
what its like to be alone
how it feels to be rejected
how to get by my own
to never share a secret
to feel empty deep inside
i can only imagine...
for myself,
i live in pride!!

i can only imagine
what its like to be abused
how it feels to lie awake
feeling angry, tired and bruised
to have no friend to turn to
filled with rage i cannot release
i can only imagine....
for myself,
i live appeased!!

i can only imagine
what it's like to know such pain
how it feels to wake each morning
with a past i can't explain
to live a constant nightmare
the one no-one else can parallel
but i can only imagine...
for myself,
i live in HELL!!!!

I HAVE....

i have cried, i have wept
i have woken, i have slept
i have taken birth, i have died
i have agreed and also have denied
i have happiness in my store
i have sorrows in my core
i have failed, i have won
sometimes i give all, sometimes none
i have experiences of heaven and of hell
i have to go there when the Forces tell
i have heard laughter, i hear cries
i have seen failures, i have seen tries
i have seen people's denials and their belief
i have seen people trusting before a decieve
i have seen people breaking
i have seen people broken
i have seen people using
other's love as a token
i have seen people brute enough
i have seen them standing tough
i have a beginning, i have an end
i gather less and more i spend
i have seen people rejoice in others' strife
i have seen it all.....
coz i am LIFE!!!!

......FOR MY HOT AIR BALLOON......

i think i might fly away
in my hot air balloon
and hide away from worldly worries
on dark side of moon

there's but one thing i need
before i float into the blue
i need a sky companion
i want it to be you....

we'll fly beyond the storm clouds
and we'll watch from up above
i'll cover you in rainbows
as we feel each other's love

you'll shower in the stars
at midnight in our special place
i'll dry you with a comet's tail
and kiss your beaming face

dreaming, drifting panaroma
changing everyday
every moonlight your loving smile
would be my milky way...

the moon will wane before us
sailing there in heaven's height
for nothing can challenge
your everlasting light...

venus shining on us
glowing soft at our devotion
our daily drifting dalliance
in love's celestial ocean...

i'll write you lover's poetry
and you will be my muse
Orion and Andromeda
will oversee our cruise

we'll sleep with clouds as pillows
maybe steal an angel's wings
and fly as magical lovebirds
or slide around saturn's rings

and should we tire of drifting
and stars floating by
we'll hook onto a meteor
and soar across the sky...

will you consent to be my mate
on our celestial ship?
i'm ready, heart all packed with love
to last for the trip...

take my hand and step aboard
we're heading for the sun
we're flying till we find a place
where our two souls are one!!!

OH! SO SWELL!!

OUT OF ALL D THINGS I HAD IN MY MIND

U WERE D MOST AGGRESSIVE OF THEM ALL

U JUST CAME RUSHING BACK TO MY THOUGHTS

EVEN IF I'D TRIED TO PUSH U AWAY N FAR.

U DON'T LET ME REST

AND EVERY TIME I CLOSE MY EYES

YOU ENGULF MY EVERY DREAM

WITH ALL YOUR CHARMS....

I HADN'T BEHAVED THIS WAY

SINCE TIMES, FORGOTTEN!!

TO HAVE BEEN POSSESSED SO FREELY

THAT IT HURTS TO THINK OF SOMEONE ELSE...

MAYBE LOVE IS THAT WAY ONLY

THE ONE I HAVE FOR YOU

SINCE I'VE BEEN SO DENYING MYSELF

TO HAVE BEEN WANTING YOU...

YOUR WANT RAISES ITS HEAD

TIME & TIME AGAIN

TILL I ACCEPT FOR SURE

THAT, YES, I'M FOR YOU...

ITS INSANE, YOU KNOW,

THAT ITS BEEN ALL THESE DAMNED YEARS

SINCE I'VE FELT A LONGING

A DEEP, CURBING FEELING

AND NOW WHEN I THINK OF YOU....

GUESS I'M GOING MAD

COZ AFTER ALL YOU'RE NOT MINE...

BUT I AM YOURS

AND THAT'S ENOUGH,

ITS FINE

NOBODY HAS CAPTIVATED ME

SO MUCH SO, TO HAVE LASTED

FOR SO LONG, AND HELL!!

YOU DIDN'T EVEN KNOCK ON D DOORS OF MY HEART..

STILL YOU'RE SO A PART OF ME...

MY LONGING_

MY DESIRE_

AND EVERY THOUGHT OF ME....

ITS EVIDENT FROM THE WAY

I TALK OF YOU

AND I IMAGINE YOU TALKING TO ME

LIKE I'VE IMAGINED NO-ONE ELSE!!

I NO LONGER ASK FOR YOU

NOR DO I EVEN HOPE

THAT ONE DAY YOU'LL ASK FOR ME

I THOUGHT "IT" WOULD FADE WITH TIME_

THE DIN OF ALL THESE MEMORIES...

BUT IT SEEMS TO ME NOW

THAT THE "MEMORIES", AS THEY SEEM,

WAS & IS & WOULD ALWAYS BE

MY ONLY LOVE, AFTER ALL!!!