Wednesday, January 28, 2009
what they say!?!?
Monday, January 26, 2009
letters to you....
Sunday, January 18, 2009
transmittable!!
Saturday, January 17, 2009
flicker of a moment
strange how things become
strange how we become strangers to ourselves
the grief hits back with a vengeance
the journey on the Crossroads continue, there ain't no help
that one deadly game of life again stretched too far...
and its funny that i thought it would hamper me no more....
the dejection and despair of unsaid emotions and traumas....
yes, i recognise this all....this all has happened before!!
cringing from inside, these cramps of pain don't leave me alone
the venemous fangs of dillemas over what am i upto, don't go
that one genuine bliss costs me too much now, but even dat seems to be lost
coz he won't believe even if i've loved him more than anyone, he thinks i'll forgo!
what a wastage i'd always been! i prided in convincing even the stones,
and here i cannot convince for the genuinity of what i've so closely held
why? coz his past still haunts him, clings hard
and here, lost amidst the brutalities of insignificance, there's probably nothing he ever felt...
but here he returns again with his haunting face from my past, and his words that hurt me now
so writhered, i cannot confront my past, i gotta find an escape somehow
he smiles and it destroys every ounce of immune i'd conjoured
did i do such brutalities to him? was i such a tyrant? why does he leave me forlorn?
that one tie to my past doesnt cut loose, doesn't unfast
why? why? why does he raise his head from burried memories time n time again?
go away.... i hate ur stay....is this a request or just frail words?
but even the one i want badly isn't here to hold me,
when i wanna run into his arms and hide from my pain.
that truth gone sour...and here even she leaves my hand...
my refuge, my balm, my mother...even she's lost behind confiscating harms!
deformed, distasteful, hurting, full of disgust...and there's no way anyone can convince me otherwise...
turbulent, full of wrath, and demeaning....the oceans of my guilt are no more calm...
there's no left, no right...the Crossroads come to an abrupt end right here
there's nowhere i can go, there's no way i can turn back
all pathways, all sidelines lead me to a graveyard...
that open grave has its own lure but even that seems to be lost in black....
this closing darkness around me, hurts me so deep
there are still those open wounds that haven't tried to heal
i scream out loud, i call for help...but there's no voice in my throat...
there's nothing i can do...would, now, i'd have to kneel??
no! this cannot be....please cradle me in your arms....
tell me, this is all a nightmare...and that, i'll wake up soon...
there are grey clouds...there's a frightening thunder
there are no rays of hope, even on those horizons beyond that crescent moon...
an old jilted tree stands by my side, struck by lightening, its now afire....
is this what is to become of me too? is this what they say is the Judgement Call??
standing here on this cliff, can't even see any ground beneath...
there's nothing i can do, there's nowhere i can go, there's no-one who even bothers...
i close my eyes, never to open.... the only way out is....
to fall........
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
you inside.....!!!!!
RETARD
Friday, January 9, 2009
"MEN"!?!.....FunnY!!!!
I'm HaPpY!!!!
so what if the paths are lonely
so what if sometimes its all phoney!?!
so what if the way back home always seem long?
still i hum a little narcissist song!
maybe i do, but i don't want anyone!
might be you don't think, but,
I'm HaPpY!!
thay come, they go away
they ditch or they stay
sometimes i feel irritated by far
still i smile looking at that star
even if i just have the words to show,
don't worry,
I'm HaPpY!!
the night descends on my tiredness
the sun collects its rays it harness
i see myself winking at my reflection
these eyes of mine away from tensions
stranded, but weak no more!
damn!
I'm HaPpY!!
whatever becomes of tomorrow
whatever the depths of sorrow
i'm wary of a long face
bouncy steps, i've regained my grace
hell to do with the worries now
I'm HaPpY!!!
Monday, January 5, 2009
-> Hyperbole <-
Saturday, January 3, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
the calamities still keep striking and expose us to our inability to maintain a balance b/w nature and us "human beings".
the terrorists still keep working on their plans on how to terrorise people! i sometimes wonder, how would their new year resolutions read as? "this year, i plan to master all the guns".,"this year, i have to go to atleast one of the missions.","this year i have to kill atleast a hundred innocents"....and so on....
but none of these terrorists would resolve, "this year i plan to read an authentic version of the Qu'ran myself and see the actual meaning or the history behind Jehad." -or- "this year, i have to make my fellows truly respect Islam and tell them that even Islam aims at harmony and peace!"
...and so foolish of me to even think that those herds of sheep led by fanatics still have a responsible and sane soul left amongst them!!
even this "new year" our corrupt politicians would keep taking bribes and would go on fighting amongst themselves...the country can always go to hell!!!
even we, the "youth" would keep yelling things we know nothing about and certainly dont mean...blocking roads and even end up in mob-violence-- one chance to actually prove that we are no better than the primitives!!!
So, what's new this "New Year"??
maybe you'd wanna tell....so, please be my guest!!
Friday, January 2, 2009
....$T@Y...
you're so not here
then why are you still near?
these woes so unsaid and unheard
my tendencies are becoming my fears!!
once there was sharing
there was an attitude of caring
now there's a damn for these hurts
i don't care how am i faring!!
its just like it was yesterday
not distant, prolonged or far away...
the agonies drown in reminiscing
until reality raises another today!!
i miss sometimes those stupid smiles i had
deepening feelings, enigmatic, too bad!!
it was true till an extent, i still think
yet nothing excites me anymore, too sad!!
there was a phase that sure does come
instead of the warning bells, i did succumb...
now the leftovers bring a tear, dont know why!?!
is this the face of the girl i have become?
the parties are fun no more
faking every thought i lived for!
holding my own hand, i have to stand-by
this never used to be the case before!!
is this the end or still a pause?
is this any judgement or just a clause??
with trmbling hands i jot down shits...
i maybe not worth, but who doesn't have flaws???
stay! my ragged breathing helps me not..
stay!! this soul is stuck in devastating clots..
stay!! my heart is scattered in bits..
stay! for without you....
Don't even wanna give it a thought!!!