....$T@Y...

you're so not here

then why are you still near?

these woes so unsaid and unheard

my tendencies are becoming my fears!!

once there was sharing

there was an attitude of caring

now there's a damn for these hurts

i don't care how am i faring!!

its just like it was yesterday

not distant, prolonged or far away...

the agonies drown in reminiscing

until reality raises another today!!

i miss sometimes those stupid smiles i had

deepening feelings, enigmatic, too bad!!

it was true till an extent, i still think

yet nothing excites me anymore, too sad!!

there was a phase that sure does come

instead of the warning bells, i did succumb...

now the leftovers bring a tear, dont know why!?!

is this the face of the girl i have become?

the parties are fun no more

faking every thought i lived for!

holding my own hand, i have to stand-by

this never used to be the case before!!

is this the end or still a pause?

is this any judgement or just a clause??

with trmbling hands i jot down shits...

i maybe not worth, but who doesn't have flaws???

stay! my ragged breathing helps me not..

stay!! this soul is stuck in devastating clots..

stay!! my heart is scattered in bits..

stay! for without you....

Don't even wanna give it a thought!!!