SWEET CHILD o' MINE.....!!!! haha!!!!

why are you looking for me now?

the doors are already closed

they won't open even if you beg and pray

they won't open even if you die before my eyes...!!

i told you that, "its over"

and hell, i meant it so much

you should have thought everything before the deciet

you should have known you're not the only one....

yes, once i was a part of you

and i know that you still hold me close

but i was lost on you when you left my hand

and i did let you go from my heart and core.

don't look for chances, my sweet!!

you know me too well to pin up hopes...

please know that i'm not welcoming you anymore...

so, pack your every belonging and just FUCK OFF!!!!

(its for those people who don't understand that when i say "its over", then i mean it...)

PEACE MAY COME

everyday there's blood all around
fallen bodies decaying on the ground
can this war, these riots stop ever??
will the sounds of agony echo forever??
will everyday a mother would die?
will everyday an orphan would cry?
is there a meaning to all this?
does this view seems a bliss??

why can't we live in peace?
is it necessary to hear shrieks??
we have in the eyes of the Almighty an equal fame...
and still, like fools, we follow different names..
and worse, we even fight over them!!
we all are children of one God, we all are His gems...
but its what we fail to understand
we kill our Lord with our own hands...

can't there be a world full of Love?
joyous rivers and a calm sky above!?!
can't we make safe homes to live...
sufficient to eat and ample to give!?!

can't this vision ever come true?
of this world having a single hue...
where everyone can live happily as one...
with a small place under the sun!!

where the flowers smile
and the bees hum...
where the terror dies
and peace may come......



(this is one of those "written for the sake" poems....ironically, i got 1st prize for it!! haha!!)

...dis poem of mine that i'm posting here....well i never got the courage to read it again...uptill now...

CROSSROADS

there she is crying

as i get closer,

i realise that its me

as i look before her feet

i realise that the pieces of my life are on the floor

just scattered!!

i don't know what to do!?!

do i pick up the pieces..

or comfort her??

but the presence is here...

his face is so very haunting!!

now i'm alone

she's gone

my life, all its memories

are scattered to the wind

the darkness is closing all around me

i don't know which way to go!?!

I'm LOST!!!

all i can do is cry with fear

i can't fight him anymore

i truly am weakened by his presence

the pain is so real

all these open wounds

are slowly killing me

are these childish fears!?!

or is he really here??

my heart is pounding

coz i realise i'm a part of him

i close my eyes begging him to go

the touch of him is gone

but not what he left behind...

i can't fight these pains anymore

coz i'm still weak

look at what he's done to me...

look at what he's left behind...

a broken, impure child

but i guess coz time can't erase,

i have no choice

but go down the road

like i've been doing all alone...

i've been telling myself

that he's gone

but he's like a shadow

here with me for always...

you've made me what i am today

all these wounds i cannot hide

i just cannot try and hide them anymore

they are just too many

the numbness of my ragged soul

hurts me so deep....

but i can't let his presence take over me

yet its hard to be strong

i'm still too weak for him!!

here i am at a Crossroad...

which road would lead to my happiness

and save me befor i'm undone!?!?

i can't live this lie anymore

i just want him to leave me alone

i have to heal

i can't turn back now

but do i go left

or shall i go right??

i don't know

i'm blinded by my pain

i'm truly stuck at this crossroad....

all alone.....

(...and now it feels so damn good to let go of this all...!!)

FACES

THERE'S A FACE IN THE DARK

a face is there in my spark

a face is in my destiny

a face behind the real me

a face pushing the bad

a face mocking on me when i'm sad

a face making evil in my head

a face knocking me dead!!!

THERE'S A FACE IN THE NIGHT....

a face filled with chills and fright

a face which makes me crave

a face which reflects my grave

a face which makes me a paranoid

a face without which i'm devoid

a face which lures the hell

a face which alters every gospel!!!

THERE'S A FACE IN THE LIGHT....

a face which simmers within right

a face i name as conscious of mine

a face breathing in my dead shrine

a face which counters my Satan

a face which perfumes my rotten

a face which says, "I'm alive"

a face which balms my cuts from knives!!!

but i just HATE IT,

i never wanna see it again....

coz i identify myself with faces

which give me EVIL & PAIN

haha!!!

THEIR PAIN....

i can only imagine
what its like to sacrifice
how it feels to do without
what it takes to pay the price
to offer all i have
unto others with a need
i can only imagine....
for myself,
i live in greed!!!

i can only imagine
what its like to be alone
how it feels to be rejected
how to get by my own
to never share a secret
to feel empty deep inside
i can only imagine...
for myself,
i live in pride!!

i can only imagine
what its like to be abused
how it feels to lie awake
feeling angry, tired and bruised
to have no friend to turn to
filled with rage i cannot release
i can only imagine....
for myself,
i live appeased!!

i can only imagine
what it's like to know such pain
how it feels to wake each morning
with a past i can't explain
to live a constant nightmare
the one no-one else can parallel
but i can only imagine...
for myself,
i live in HELL!!!!

I HAVE....

i have cried, i have wept
i have woken, i have slept
i have taken birth, i have died
i have agreed and also have denied
i have happiness in my store
i have sorrows in my core
i have failed, i have won
sometimes i give all, sometimes none
i have experiences of heaven and of hell
i have to go there when the Forces tell
i have heard laughter, i hear cries
i have seen failures, i have seen tries
i have seen people's denials and their belief
i have seen people trusting before a decieve
i have seen people breaking
i have seen people broken
i have seen people using
other's love as a token
i have seen people brute enough
i have seen them standing tough
i have a beginning, i have an end
i gather less and more i spend
i have seen people rejoice in others' strife
i have seen it all.....
coz i am LIFE!!!!

......FOR MY HOT AIR BALLOON......

i think i might fly away
in my hot air balloon
and hide away from worldly worries
on dark side of moon

there's but one thing i need
before i float into the blue
i need a sky companion
i want it to be you....

we'll fly beyond the storm clouds
and we'll watch from up above
i'll cover you in rainbows
as we feel each other's love

you'll shower in the stars
at midnight in our special place
i'll dry you with a comet's tail
and kiss your beaming face

dreaming, drifting panaroma
changing everyday
every moonlight your loving smile
would be my milky way...

the moon will wane before us
sailing there in heaven's height
for nothing can challenge
your everlasting light...

venus shining on us
glowing soft at our devotion
our daily drifting dalliance
in love's celestial ocean...

i'll write you lover's poetry
and you will be my muse
Orion and Andromeda
will oversee our cruise

we'll sleep with clouds as pillows
maybe steal an angel's wings
and fly as magical lovebirds
or slide around saturn's rings

and should we tire of drifting
and stars floating by
we'll hook onto a meteor
and soar across the sky...

will you consent to be my mate
on our celestial ship?
i'm ready, heart all packed with love
to last for the trip...

take my hand and step aboard
we're heading for the sun
we're flying till we find a place
where our two souls are one!!!