HYBRID

this pain is so dumb

i find myself go numb

and the irony is that i still smile!!

these frail emotions,

surpassing all commotions

and someday,

my madness was worthwhile!!

these deafening voices

of all my vices

call me, scathe me

and avenge for my mind

this hybrid theory

of my internal gory

shuts me off from you

leaves my eyes blind...

its so intoxicating,

the blending of pain

and masochism, free ride!!

its so demeaning,

the smiles i still fake

creating my dungeons to hide!

this hybrid theory

of my internal gory

shuts me off from you...

so come like a rain

in my garden of disdain

and wash my winter snow so blue...

you know, here without you,

even these damned thoughts seem new!

and heaviness sets a certain desire...

you knew i need you, yea!?!?

still my voice couldn't convey,

how this want set me on fire....

this hybrid theory

of my internal gory

shuts me off from you...

so come like a breath

in the gasp of my death

and feel what i've held so true.....