wat to do????

in utter insensitivity towards my own interests, i have charred my p.c screen!!....so i'm on the mercy of my college authorities to allow me to blog from over here!!!

i do not hope to get caught!!

past few days have been a real headache!!!

and its been a terrible time doing things under my lecturers' commands...but the fests are here,,,and i did not think before joining any of the societies over here...that i also would have to work hard!!! tsk! tsk!!

anyways...things have been straightening out a bit...and i'm happy to have been spared the tedious running around uselessly!!

from quite some days,,,my family and everyone around me, including me, are thinking dat i'm goin nuts!! and worse, into some sort of depression...and i'm taken aback how the much needed silence i'd enforced upon me, have sent wrong, terribly wrong signals to all!!!

however, life hasnt been fair to me either!!!

its been so unwise and deliberately haunting!!!!!!

i guess its just d tiredness maybe something else, but i havent even wrote something worth posting up over here,,,,

i hope to be back in my hues again....

take care

SHADOW DREAMZZZ!!!!

the days are so dull
and the nights spent in longing
losing it all over just on an issue
and once, i was scared of belonging!!
the envisioning of this frenzied mind
the cusps on the curb to lay down and die...
i hang on to the hopes held so deep
one day, we'll meet... but we'll also say "Goodbye"!!
coz i know these are shadow dreams
they take me to a bend
where there are we both, alone!
but, then, i know... I'm not even a friend!!
the pictures which come when i close my eyes
the provocative fantasies that are engraved...
i don't know if i'd want them or not
but towards them, i feel so enslaved..
it comes naturally to me, like the air to the lungs,

the desire, the need, the knowing that there's just you...

but time 'n' again, i'm thrown alone with them

drowsed in all the agonising shades of blue!!

coz i know that these are shadow dreams

yet they take me away to a bend...

where i'm just yours, and you are mine...

but, then, i know-- i'm not even a friend!!