Wednesday, January 28, 2009

what they say!?!?

Glories, i reckon, come dowsed in blood
over-the-top ambitions fucking a lively nut
slithering, crawling, fading away...
Glories, i reckon, the works of a hard day!!
Ambition, i think, is just another word
for the daddies of a strictness absurd
growing cold day by day, for always.
Ambitions, a cover-up for a brutal face!
Hardwork, i guess, is an understatement!
for the decaying life in the brackets of stalement!
like stalgamites, sharp and killing deep
Hardwork, just a mock on those who're weak!
Dedication, a word to remember, i say!
sweet-tongued slavery, to give a way...
to subdue the spirit and the elation
a word to overwhelm...Dedication!!
Fun!?! what a downtrodden being one must be!
wasting time on sportsmanship and a skinned knee!
how could one enjoy? the work's still undone.
and it won't ever be complete till you're living under the sun!!
why are these the words every child is told?
why, before their childhood, they're asked to grow old?
why is this the massacre these elders commit?
feeding such pulp to kids and not even letting them vomit!
marks, competitions, jobs, the institutions,
all blunders! an irrepairable nuisance!
ruining capabilities and talents, producing muggers
where does this lead? the thought gives shudders!!
it IS necessary, very necessary, i know!
but let kids create, let them mess, let them grow!!
today, the curriculum doesnt encourage them in any way!
but it WILL go on..like a show, as they say!!

Monday, January 26, 2009

letters to you....


every night when can't doze off..
i write a letter to you!
they're not the letters of a lovlorn lass
infact, its all i wanna tell you!!
they won't say, "i miss you"!!
coz by now, you should get used to it!
i just write the things i can only write
insane they are... my letters to you!!

i've conjoured this fragile heart of mine,
drained it dry on every page!
maybe i shall post them sometime
then even you'd know why i just write
though there'd be no Shakespearean beauty,
in them are some words, words that seem snooty!
yet those words are somewhat true
that's why they're there in my letters to you!!

OK, this whole thing seems to be lovey-dovey..it isn't!
just some words, rather thoughts i can't resist!!
they started soon after we kissed for the first time
maybe they'd continue even if i'm not your prime!!
i laugh at them when i re-read!!
stupid letters form an inevitable creed!!
maybe the one to read them all, is You...
but i've got no guts to post my letters to you!!

you'd laugh at them if you'd read
they seem to spring up from my greed!
lengthy sometimes, sometimes just a few lines
but their underline is that... i pine!!
embarrassed even right now i am, you see?
just at the thought of you reading those letters from me!
you know? it just struck me, outta the blues...
even this stupid rhyming is like a letter to you!!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

transmittable!!


those cold, lonely, long nights....
waking up, shivering in fright
open ends stretched beyond sight
transmittable.... nothing's all right!!

savouring the taste of ill-will
creed savaged by beggotry, going downhill
bluffing thrills the hell outta sanity, still
transmittable.... and, it'll kill!!

lights blown out by winds of deciet
hopelessness floats, disguised as greed
over the top, yet such an underdog in fleet
transmittable... how one sells his soul without a reciept!!

transmittable... all those junk emotions
transmittable... coz maybe they're never true
transmittable... the only melancholic paranoia
transmittable... always... form me to you!!!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

flicker of a moment

"CROSSROADS".....contd...


strange how things become
strange how we become strangers to ourselves
the grief hits back with a vengeance
the journey on the Crossroads continue, there ain't no help
that one deadly game of life again stretched too far...
and its funny that i thought it would hamper me no more....
the dejection and despair of unsaid emotions and traumas....
yes, i recognise this all....this all has happened before!!


cringing from inside, these cramps of pain don't leave me alone
the venemous fangs of dillemas over what am i upto, don't go
that one genuine bliss costs me too much now, but even dat seems to be lost
coz he won't believe even if i've loved him more than anyone, he thinks i'll forgo!
what a wastage i'd always been! i prided in convincing even the stones,
and here i cannot convince for the genuinity of what i've so closely held
why? coz his past still haunts him, clings hard
and here, lost amidst the brutalities of insignificance, there's probably nothing he ever felt...


but here he returns again with his haunting face from my past, and his words that hurt me now
so writhered, i cannot confront my past, i gotta find an escape somehow
he smiles and it destroys every ounce of immune i'd conjoured
did i do such brutalities to him? was i such a tyrant? why does he leave me forlorn?
that one tie to my past doesnt cut loose, doesn't unfast
why? why? why does he raise his head from burried memories time n time again?
go away.... i hate ur stay....is this a request or just frail words?
but even the one i want badly isn't here to hold me,
when i wanna run into his arms and hide from my pain.

that truth gone sour...and here even she leaves my hand...
my refuge, my balm, my mother...even she's lost behind confiscating harms!
deformed, distasteful, hurting, full of disgust...and there's no way anyone can convince me otherwise...
turbulent, full of wrath, and demeaning....the oceans of my guilt are no more calm...

there's no left, no right...the Crossroads come to an abrupt end right here
there's nowhere i can go, there's no way i can turn back
all pathways, all sidelines lead me to a graveyard...
that open grave has its own lure but even that seems to be lost in black....
this closing darkness around me, hurts me so deep
there are still those open wounds that haven't tried to heal
i scream out loud, i call for help...but there's no voice in my throat...
there's nothing i can do...would, now, i'd have to kneel??

no! this cannot be....please cradle me in your arms....
tell me, this is all a nightmare...and that, i'll wake up soon...
there are grey clouds...there's a frightening thunder
there are no rays of hope, even on those horizons beyond that crescent moon...
an old jilted tree stands by my side, struck by lightening, its now afire....
is this what is to become of me too? is this what they say is the Judgement Call??
standing here on this cliff, can't even see any ground beneath...
there's nothing i can do, there's nowhere i can go, there's no-one who even bothers...
i close my eyes, never to open.... the only way out is....
to fall........

Wednesday, January 14, 2009



THE EYES THAT SPOKE...

SEE IF U CAN HEAR HOW THEY SPOKE!

OF WONDERS OF SOME SECRETS,

OF A LOVLORN BLOKE!!

OF A MIGHTY FIRE DEEP INSIDE,

THE WILL AND INSTINCTS NOT TO SUBSIDE

THATS HOW THESE EYES SPOKE

LOVESWEPT FOR A BLOKE!!!

you inside.....!!!!!


didn't brush in the morning
didn't even smoke a ciggerette
coz your taste was still lingering in my mouth
and, believe me, there'd never be any regret!
your words still resonating in my ears
your hand, still holding mine!
my lips couldn't stop blushing and smiling
in my eyes was a strange shine!
your touch, even now, so fresh!
your scent still wraps my skin!
my pulses still beat in the aftermath
i never felt something akin!
what the hell are you doing to me, eh?
do you even have a clue?
how badly you made me yours!!
and how much i want you!?!
"don't, please, don't make me yours"
huh! what a weak request!
you know i am yours, forever to be
you're like the end to my long quest...
the memories of those moments,
don't let me sleep a wink!
my pulses throb in the reminence
my apocalypse, just at the brink!!
your arms still hold me tight
your fingers still rove over me
that fight still brings a flush!
that kiss reddens my cheeks...
i'm still feeling your breaths on my neck
i'm still feeling your gaze on me
and that sudden excuse or looking away...
Gosh!!!
you're really not letting me be!!!
that bearded, sensuous face of yours,
its still like i'm sitting by your side!
i still feel like you're reading my thoughts
even if we're distant by miles!!
you filled me drop by drop...
letting me overflow!
kissing me hard, yet so tender
no rush, you had me slow!!!
why do i still smile and hide my face!?!
why are you so omnipresent for me!?!
guess i have no answers and questions don't end...
why do i feel you living in the inside of me!?!?

RETARD

penning down...my head frowns
going back to memories
those myths of b'ful stories
someday, these memories were cherished
but now cuz of them, i perish!!
...sometimes i wish things would be like i want them...
sometimes life is such a mystery
it goes over my head
pinches me inside my system,
agony leaves me dead...
destiny...destiny...
and its such a venom
it drips right down
from all the words you just said
leaves me dead...dead!!
hey...
all i wanted to hear,
some kind words, not just those spears
killing me outright
and why?
why could you not have lied?
so convincing and just so precise
your deciet, my suicide!!
set me free...
let me be...
coz now that its over,
so, just now you stop clogging my mind
you're left behind... behind!!!!