since before....

since before i read your poems,

i've loved you!!

since before i found your soul repeating my thoughts

prior to when i uttered them,

i've loved you!!

since before your face walked into the depths of my heart,

i've loved you!!

i've loved you before i even knew of love!

i've loved you before i was aware of our connection!

i've loved you when silence was the only companion

which shared the journey of my days!!

so, ask me not what this moment brings

when you cross my thoughts

with a warm smile played upon the fingers of my words..

ask me not, for this is an instance

where all that is required of us

is to listen to the sound of my soul's harbinger

wafting idly the wings of my dreams...

while your reflection is observed

in the teacups of my existence

an offer of the surety that at such a time

even a silent breeze breaks the most sardonic of quiets

with that silent whisper, my angel,

I've LOVED YOU!!!

the language of your dance....(a friend wrote dat for me!)

in blinding lights,

what is this dance you do?

your movements move me..

your locks flow...

your legs continue to move with such grace..

your arms and hands show every emotion

you've been scared,

your heart been broken

your eyes show so much passion!!

what is this dance you do!?!?

its an unknown language...

as your hair slashes your face,

your footwork kept the beat

such grace, so poised

your eyes show so much pain...

when you twirled, it was as if

a fountain of tears swirled around you...

your motion and motivation tears my heart

this unknown language of sadness, yet passion

is finally understood....

The Language Of Dance

its what you speak...

and only i understood

its what only i can understand!!

(i must say dat i'm whole heartedly flattered!!)

LIFE TODAY IS.....

red grass, grey skies.
sick people, sad goodbyes.
dark days, empty nights.
dying people, violent fights.
frightened kids, scared moms.
divorced parents, lost bonds.
starving children, bloodthirsty thugs.
innocent victims, kids with drugs.
devil worshippers, constant crime.
shot of a gun, nothing's fine.

careless adults, confused youth.
countless faults, child abuse.
selling drugs, peer pressure.
spreading AIDS, prostitute pleasure.
daily abductions, victims of rape.
so much pain, few ever escape.

turning to suicide, ending the life.
psycho pathkillers, blade of a knife.
agony of loss, a broken heart.
painful love, being ripped apart.
homeless people, the joy of hurting.
a love's child, so many uncertain.
pregnant teens, unstoppable STDs.
ashamed heritage, so many wannabes.
sibling hatered, dangerous obssessions.
optionated critics, devastating suggestions.

killing family, betraying friends.
as lust begins, honesty ends...
hopeless tomorrow, doubtful future.
destroying the mind, sickening humour.
neverending illness, too much disease.

can it stop ever? someone tell me please!!

animal-like torture, alone a new-born cry.
abandoned infants, left to die.
sleeping around, simply for lust.
decietful fellows, losing all trust.
breaking the laws, getting away.
courtroom injustice, its the victims who pay!!

who's wrong? who's right?
criminals admired, have we lost sight!?!

broken families, few who pray.
the ugliest outlook coming-off each day
forgotten morals, money-hungry fools.
disgraceful greed, all befriend to use!!

so many questions, such few answers
waiting to know, but all happens much faster
when did it happen? how did it start?
who's to blame for letting our world fall apart!?!?

.......GONE!!!!!

how i searched far and wide

by the beach, watching the tide

everyone watched how i cried

inside.... my soul died!!

wondering why things always fall apart

how i long for a fresh new start

for the pain has made its mark

and my heart is in so dark..

tears fall from my eyes

from hearing everyone's lies

inside, my heart dies!!

i look at you

wondering what i'll do!?!

my wants are, but, few

still, you haven't got a clue

you leave no words at all

a dumb silence for my call

and i grasp at blindness in dark...

the feelings are still there

even after knowing no-one cares

all everyone does is stare

i give the last sigh of grief

for then i know its all over...

the memories fade to a shadow

for then i realise.....

I'M GONE!!!

LONELY...

lonely voices crying in the city

lonely voices sounding like a child!

lonely people looking around in the city

too disturbed, to stop a while...

lonely voices fill my dreams

lonely voices haunt my memories

lonely faces looking for the sunrise..

just to find another busy day!!

lonely faces all around the city

men afraid and too ashamed to pray

lonely faces i do see

lonely faces haunt my memories...

lonely people live in every city

men who face a dark, lonely grave...

lonely faces i do see...

lonely voices calling to you and me....

bad-blood!!!

sometimes when i just sit down...
and push my brains into some rare thinking,
some thoughts then flash into my mind..
and i wonder if my my life's really stinking!?!


my stands are always questioned, i'm a declared addict!
my mind is contagious..and dark are my verdicts!!


its all in my head, yet, i can't explain..
its all in my wounds, still you won't see my pain!!


my mind is dead, my thoughts are gore..
i get enough poison to drink, yet i want more!!


i wanna see your limits, i'm holding hard on my nerve
you call me dark, yes..my aura is murk!!
you have questions to ask, but nothing i'd like to tell
you call me stubborn...yes, arrogance fills my every cell!!

its all in my head, yet i can't explain
its all in my wounds, still you won't see my pain...

i think it's a stinky sty you've made, and you call me unfit!!
i'm wasted in your world, you haven't even left my bit...

my mind has become dead, and my thoughts too gore..
i get enough poison to drink, yet, just gimme more!!!

(okk now....i know this is pretty much like an alien's account...!!)

....TEAR....

this one single tear
is a sign of fear

a fear deep inside
and i always lied;
nothing's wrong!!

reoccuring lyrics to my song of melancholy
the love that was...
is no longer here
all that is,
is this one single tear...
and i get so sad
its hard to act glad!!

remembering the love
watching the birds above
the clouds rolling by
i never needed to cry

now i lie
with this one single tear
filled all up with fear...

I CRY.....