bad-blood!!!

sometimes when i just sit down...
and push my brains into some rare thinking,
some thoughts then flash into my mind..
and i wonder if my my life's really stinking!?!


my stands are always questioned, i'm a declared addict!
my mind is contagious..and dark are my verdicts!!


its all in my head, yet, i can't explain..
its all in my wounds, still you won't see my pain!!


my mind is dead, my thoughts are gore..
i get enough poison to drink, yet i want more!!


i wanna see your limits, i'm holding hard on my nerve
you call me dark, yes..my aura is murk!!
you have questions to ask, but nothing i'd like to tell
you call me stubborn...yes, arrogance fills my every cell!!

its all in my head, yet i can't explain
its all in my wounds, still you won't see my pain...

i think it's a stinky sty you've made, and you call me unfit!!
i'm wasted in your world, you haven't even left my bit...

my mind has become dead, and my thoughts too gore..
i get enough poison to drink, yet, just gimme more!!!

(okk now....i know this is pretty much like an alien's account...!!)

....TEAR....

this one single tear
is a sign of fear

a fear deep inside
and i always lied;
nothing's wrong!!

reoccuring lyrics to my song of melancholy
the love that was...
is no longer here
all that is,
is this one single tear...
and i get so sad
its hard to act glad!!

remembering the love
watching the birds above
the clouds rolling by
i never needed to cry

now i lie
with this one single tear
filled all up with fear...

I CRY.....

WORDS.....

we said the cruelest things

pain overflowed our eyes..

our words were like daggers,

despite their sweet disguise!!

we knew that we were wrong

that we should control...

but our tempers had no mercy

as we stabbed right to the soul...

and though time has healed the wounds,

the jagged scars remain...

reminders etched across our hearts...

remembrance of the pain.....

dis one out here is to d eternal love of my life.....

~ I WANNA STAY WHERE YOU ARE ~

your voice is like an aphrodisiac

i get intoxicated since the first word

i can't concentrate on my tasks

if its your voice i heard....

i dont wanna go where the angels fly...

i dont wanna go where the bad guys fry...

i just wanna stay where you are..

i just wanna immerse in you when i die!!

i can't find my dummy alive

its your music that breathes out in me

you're in my mind, my heart, my life

you're alive in every word i speak...

i dont wanna go where the angels fly

i dont wanna go where the bad guys fry

i just wanna stay where you are

i just know to live in you, in every moment passing by!!

Shall I Wonder....??

Standing here in the doorway

Waiting for you to return

No word heard from you all this long

Or shall i wonder if i'm worth being spoken to??

Hoping against hopes
That you’ll realize I’m there
Behind the scenes, maybe
But yet, can I be unseen?
Or shall I wonder if I worth to be noticed??

Calling your name out in the dark
All I hear are the echoes of my pain
Do you even listen? Do you even care to??
Am I such a waste?
Or shall I wonder if I even worth your attention??

These labyrinths are so much to handle
Left abandoned, left behind, forgotten!!
You’ve strayed off and far, misguided
But please return before the door closes
Am I such a burden to bear?
Or shall I wonder if ever we really were friends!?!

HOW LONG SINCE.....???

how long has it been

since i talked to a friend

and told them my heart's hidden secrets!?!

how long since i prayed, since i stayed...

on my knees, till light shone through!?!

how long has it been

since my mind felt at ease??

how long since my heart knew no burden?

can you call me your friend?

how long has it been since anybody knew

that i care for them??

how long has it been

since i knelt by my bed

and prayed to Lord, up above in heaven?

how long since i knew that He'll care for me

and would keep me the long night through!?!

how long has it been

since i woke with the dawn

and felt that this day is worth living?

can you call me your friend??

how long has it been since you knew

that i care for you!?!

ANGEL OF DISGRACE

i wish my eyes were shut

then i'd have no fears

go through life

with no hate or tears

or if i was numb

i'd feel no pain

never drowning in shadows

or soaking in shame...

maybe an angel

feeling good so much

then i wouldn't be scared

of love's sweet touch...

kissing me softly

with one deep breath

sweeping me into

eternity, with rest

i wish i wasn't

always so alone

everybody's something--

i just wanna go home!!

nobody to talk to

they're all cloned and fake

and then, there's me-

easy to hate!!

they think i stand on a pedestal

perfect picture in a frame

there's more to it..

underneath the mask, there's shame..

horrible things

said and done

but nobody would listen,

to them, its fun!!

i hold onto my anger

locked in a box

chains all around it

attached are locks!!

i wish there was a key

to let it all out

but instead it builds up..

exploding, without a doubt

sometimes i wanna scream

so long that life escapes

then i'd shut my eyes

i'd be the angel of disgrace!!

(dis is d closet truth abt me)