Monday, October 13, 2008

WORDS.....

we said the cruelest things
pain overflowed our eyes..
our words were like daggers,
despite their sweet disguise!!
we knew that we were wrong
that we should control...
but our tempers had no mercy
as we stabbed right to the soul...
and though time has healed the wounds,
the jagged scars remain...
reminders etched across our hearts...
remembrance of the pain.....

Saturday, October 11, 2008

dis one out here is to d eternal love of my life.....


~ I WANNA STAY WHERE YOU ARE ~


your voice is like an aphrodisiac
i get intoxicated since the first word
i can't concentrate on my tasks
if its your voice i heard....

i dont wanna go where the angels fly...
i dont wanna go where the bad guys fry...
i just wanna stay where you are..
i just wanna immerse in you when i die!!

i can't find my dummy alive
its your music that breathes out in me
you're in my mind, my heart, my life
you're alive in every word i speak...

i dont wanna go where the angels fly
i dont wanna go where the bad guys fry
i just wanna stay where you are
i just know to live in you, in every moment passing by!!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Shall I Wonder....??

Standing here in the doorway
Waiting for you to return
No word heard from you all this long
Or shall i wonder if i'm worth being spoken to??


Hoping against hopes
That you’ll realize I’m there
Behind the scenes, maybe
But yet, can I be unseen?
Or shall I wonder if I worth to be noticed??

Calling your name out in the dark
All I hear are the echoes of my pain
Do you even listen? Do you even care to??
Am I such a waste?
Or shall I wonder if I even worth your attention??

These labyrinths are so much to handle
Left abandoned, left behind, forgotten!!
You’ve strayed off and far, misguided
But please return before the door closes
Am I such a burden to bear?
Or shall I wonder if ever we really were friends!?!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

HOW LONG SINCE.....???

how long has it been
since i talked to a friend
and told them my heart's hidden secrets!?!
how long since i prayed, since i stayed...
on my knees, till light shone through!?!
how long has it been
since my mind felt at ease??
how long since my heart knew no burden?
can you call me your friend?
how long has it been since anybody knew
that i care for them??
how long has it been
since i knelt by my bed
and prayed to Lord, up above in heaven?
how long since i knew that He'll care for me
and would keep me the long night through!?!
how long has it been
since i woke with the dawn
and felt that this day is worth living?
can you call me your friend??
how long has it been since you knew
that i care for you!?!

ANGEL OF DISGRACE

i wish my eyes were shut

then i'd have no fears

go through life

with no hate or tears

or if i was numb

i'd feel no pain

never drowning in shadows

or soaking in shame...

maybe an angel

feeling good so much

then i wouldn't be scared

of love's sweet touch...

kissing me softly

with one deep breath

sweeping me into

eternity, with rest

i wish i wasn't

always so alone

everybody's something--

i just wanna go home!!

nobody to talk to

they're all cloned and fake

and then, there's me-

easy to hate!!

they think i stand on a pedestal

perfect picture in a frame

there's more to it..

underneath the mask, there's shame..

horrible things

said and done

but nobody would listen,

to them, its fun!!

i hold onto my anger

locked in a box

chains all around it

attached are locks!!

i wish there was a key

to let it all out

but instead it builds up..

exploding, without a doubt

sometimes i wanna scream

so long that life escapes

then i'd shut my eyes

i'd be the angel of disgrace!!

(dis is d closet truth abt me)

Monday, October 6, 2008

just a thought.....

seeing so many people wasted and wounded, i wonder to myself, what am i supposed to feel?? shall i feel happy that i'm safe -or- shall i feel sorry for not doing anything??
watching films like "swades" and "rang de basanti"...getting a drive for a week, max!! and then, we all return to our daily monotonous lives with an excuse, "we have our workloads"...
i know i'm sounding too hypocritical, but somehow, these things do not leave the corners of my mind..
that day i watched those agonising clips of the Orissa Anarchy, and a particular clip which was played again and again, still has its impact on me... the clip was of a small boy of around 6-7 years, trying to revoke his dead father. the boy kept screaming, "papa, please utho na!!" (papa, please get up).... i don't know what happened to me, but soon i was in tears, silently sobbing, and asking myself, "what did this poor boy do to have deserved this??"
but the answer was very simple... the boy did nothing...and he's only facing this agony because nobody does anything. we stupid, meak bunch of scapegoats are just too weak to be united. for every true voice raised, there are a thousand more to suppress it. we go on blaming the government, the systems, the world....and anything and everybody who seems even a little more authoritative than us. and its so funny to note that we have grown so accustomed to keep blaming someone or the other that we never really care that its ultimately we people at the grassroot!! now when the base is so damn useless...what can one say about the structure built on it!?!? NO COMMENTS!!!
this is the festive season going on....and people are scared to go to the crowded places_ fearing another stampede or a blast.... FOOLS!!!!
whosoever guaranteed that their homes are safe!!??!
and its so annoying that a mere percentage of these cockroaches called "terrorists" can scare the whole of mankind till the bones!! sometimes their efforts seem really commendable!! its sometimes really wonderful to see how they misuse even the most foolproof technologies!! and that communicating through porn movies!?! what a brain to have found such means!!!
but then again, why to create terror for?? to gain some power or authority? these minds are so sick that if the world authority is handed over to them, they'll grow tired of it within a day... coz these sick minds find it amusing to slaughter people.... sick men with a more sickening mentality... and the most frustrating thing is that they hide their monstruous activities behind the veil of the ever-disputed Religion....
what is this place we are living in??
i feel sometimes, that ending the whole of mankind with a nuclear attack is the best option we are left with coz now even the Gods can't alter these diseased human wastes that we've become.....

Sunday, October 5, 2008

end of my tolerance

d more i push hard
the more i'm pulled back
by condescending talks
and condemning attacks
those bitter acceptance
of denials and sins
blame it on the losses
coz they overshadow my wins
justification of my end
lies within my disappointments
wat i feel- wat i do
is cursed by poisonous assignments

i'm plagued, i'm enraged
by abnormality of delays
i'm happy dat i'm caged
coz slavery releases freedom in many ways!!

i'm gonna burn every piece of me,
and destroy myself to a rubble of ash
there ain't no way of being free
coz thought and action always clash

my lonely world is all mine
and i need to be always there
coz its better to quit than keep trying
wen tolerance is murdered
by pardonful, untrue care.....